I carried the pile of laundry down the stairs blacks and navy blues and forest greens plus a few too big t-shirts of pale yellow, worn brick, and eucalyptus so I didn't care if the colors bled; mostly clothes for working out plus one pair of work pants.
I dumped my pile of dirties onto the floor and moved my partner's wet load from washer to dryer; one by one I moved the items from my pile into the gaping mouth of the washing machine, pausing at each pocket inspecting for things sticky or precious or leaky find cough drops, quarters, receipts
Until the next to last pair of pants my favorite, often worn black Adidas with three pink stripes and the pink drawstring at the waist tucked into the microfiber pants I almost overlooked a yellow sticky note with a note scribbled on it no date no location no indication of why
The note said "awakening to the inner knowledge after a long period of draught and wonderings I realize that I've found a key" the handwriting hurried, not desperate but needing to be said and not forgotten
I stared at the note trying to remember where I wore the pants last or when or something to clue me in I have no memory of the note or the time. I put the note into my jeans pocket and stuff the Adidas into the washer along with the black work chinos.
I'll tape the note to my computer monitor and hope the memory surfaces.
I begin the difficult task trying hard to clear away the clutter in a life facing the mess i have made stacks of books academic and for fun crinkled brown bags contain various papers dust and old bills pile upon pile of anxiety
I sit down with old notebooks most from the time i was in school and flip through each page afraid to throw out some long ago and hard won truth notes from classes and random thoughts sprinkled throughout all seem filled with some wisdom i may need one day i fear the loss
as i try to come to acceptance of letting go i find in the divider pocket of one of the notebooks yellow paged goodbye cards from those who grew to know me in one of my internship placements their thoughts and wishes well have sat here unseen all these years
and finally, finally the strangest thing i find a knowing that their kind care has been here all along and keeping this debris just clogs my already clutterd heart finally and finally again i realize i am not throwing out love only dusty reminders of something i already know
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3 comments:
If I Only Knew
by Dot
I carried the pile of laundry down the stairs
blacks and navy blues and forest greens
plus a few too big t-shirts of pale yellow, worn brick, and eucalyptus
so I didn't care if the colors bled;
mostly clothes for working out plus
one pair of work pants.
I dumped my pile of dirties onto the floor and
moved my partner's wet load from washer to dryer;
one by one I moved the items from my pile
into the gaping mouth of the washing machine,
pausing at each pocket
inspecting for things sticky or precious or leaky
find cough drops, quarters, receipts
Until the next to last pair of pants
my favorite, often worn black Adidas with three pink stripes
and the pink drawstring at the waist
tucked into the microfiber pants I almost overlooked
a yellow sticky note
with a note scribbled on it
no date no location no indication of why
The note said
"awakening to the inner knowledge
after a long period of draught and wonderings
I realize that I've found a key"
the handwriting hurried, not desperate
but needing to be said and not forgotten
I stared at the note
trying to remember where I wore the pants last
or when or something to clue me in
I have no memory of the note or the time.
I put the note into my jeans pocket and stuff the Adidas into the washer
along with the black work chinos.
I'll tape the note to my computer monitor
and hope the memory surfaces.
What a treasure that note! The source will come to you and even if not, you still have the key right!!
Old Notebooks
by Deb
I begin the difficult task
trying hard to clear away
the clutter in a life
facing the mess i have made
stacks of books
academic and for fun
crinkled brown bags
contain various papers
dust and old bills
pile upon pile
of anxiety
I sit down with old notebooks
most from the time i was in school
and flip through each page
afraid to throw out
some long ago and hard won truth
notes from classes
and random thoughts
sprinkled throughout
all seem filled with
some wisdom i may need one day
i fear the loss
as i try to come
to acceptance of letting go
i find in the divider pocket
of one of the notebooks
yellow paged
goodbye cards from those
who grew to know me in one
of my internship placements
their thoughts and wishes well
have sat here unseen all these years
and finally, finally
the strangest thing i find
a knowing that their kind care
has been here all along
and keeping this debris
just clogs my already
clutterd heart
finally and finally again
i realize i am not throwing out love
only dusty reminders
of something i already know
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